A Thorn on the Rose

So...

2008-07-16T04:16:07Z

I haven't posted in this live journal in a while, but a few days ago, I went back and read all my previous entries I had written when I was 15. I had so many questions, not to mention too much time on my hands. Now, I'm 17, and so far, not much has changed. I'm still a philosopher at heart, I still write religiously, and I still love to perform.

Slowly, but surely, I am finding myself. I’m trying to fail fewer classes so I can graduate with my class and pursue my dreams. I’m trying to use what I’ve learned to my benefit and perhaps to help others not to make the same mistakes I have. Everything around me is changing and the call to take on more responsibility is echoing even louder than before. I must answer that call with diligence and confidence.

Hope everyone is doing well. :)

Musical Healing

2007-04-28T03:26:25Z

Fragments of life, still with chance
To form in a mosaic of beauty.
And not with tape or glue,
But with something meaningful,
A song—our song.
First step is discovery,
Following is action in strength.
And from that point
We create reasons
To keep our music playing.
And the radio’s sound won’t cease
Until the battery dies.
So, the music withstands
Through volume highs
And lows.
With more truth than we realize,
More music than the song plays—
Subliminal messages.
Every day we’ll listen
To a different tune.
So let’s separate each beat
And let them burst—from our souls.
Whatever compositions—
Whether in symphony
Or clashing conflict.
Make them yours.
It’s your right.

-Bri Neves

Boring Entry

2007-03-19T05:38:26Z

Well, I haven't posted in awhile so, I figured I'd update.

It was my birthday on the 12th. Had a pretty good birthday.

I'm working on a novel.

Not much to say.

Life is good.

Howdy.

2007-01-21T06:47:48Z

So, on Friday I performed for the theatre showcase at my school, singing "He's a Tramp" fm the movie Lady and the Tramp. Besides the fact that my microphone wouldn't turn on and a strap of my dress fell down, I guess I did alright. I could have done a lot better though. :/ People seemed to be in awe of my voice, which surprised me. My singing voice has gotten significantly lower in the past year so, I chose a song that contains very low notes. Fellow females singers were all like "Wow, you've got a rare gift. A girl who can sing really low and sound beautiful." In fact, after my rehersal performance on Thursday, some girl I don't even know shouted "Encore!" Man, the last few days were quite the ego boost, eh? Not that I need one. :p

I've been writing a lot lately. Even more than usual. Which is a whole crapload considering I've always been a writer. In just around three weeks, I've written twenty-seven pages of a novel I'm in the process of, one completed short story (six pages), and two short stories in the process (one is three pages and the other is merely a couple paragraphs). Along with that, I've also written several poems and song lyrics. I suppose this is the period of inspiration for me. In addition, it is also the period where I discover the fact that I have an incredibly active imagination. I swear, I think of the craziest things--and then I write about them and people read them and are like "what the heck?" But I adore it. I absolutely love that kind of reaction from people. :D

So, life is good, all is well, and I'm a happy soul.

Cheers. :)

The most scattered entry you'll probably ever read.

2006-12-24T08:21:34Z

What a long while it's been, eh? Realizing that dust was collecting up in this old journal, I decided, why not write in it? :)

Anyways, so here I am, it's 3:00 in the morning, and I have yet to tire. I've been up awhile, reading a lovely book by V.C. Andrews and listening to some wonderful old music (60s, 70s, 80s). I'm a fool for I really should get to bed as I am attending church tomarrow. But, alas, there's a restlessness lurking within me, and it seems the sandman is on a brief vacation. Oh well, I'll get sleepy eventually, probably during the hour in which I have to wake up. :p

Life has been kind as always yet I still sometimes find myself in quite the gloomy mood. I'm clueless as to the reason for that...Perhaps I'm just naturally a moody person? Well, whatever the reason, I'm glad I have the optimistic logic to remind myself that all is well and even when something does not go the way I want it to, it's part of a learning process which will never cease in this lifetime. I'm glad I have myself to depend on as others often prove to be untrustworthy. Funny how I used to lean on others for courage and strength; now I'm an independent, self sufficent person with a determination to take on the world. My spirts high, my head in the air, there's no way I won't succeed. The only flaw in this line of reasoning that I can readily point out is that there is a possibility that I may let myself down. But, I mustn't think about that at the moment...

I fear that there's a great gap between my ambitions and the means of getting there. I have so many large aspirations and I try my best to make them happen but, it seems there is something holding me back from living up to my full potential...It may be something I'm lacking, in skill, in character, or something else... Who knows?

What's been new with me? Failed World History with a 65%. I had studied my ass off for the final exams but, I guess in the end, it mattered not. So now I'll have to take the stupid class all over again, in Summer School or through online classes. Ugh. And to think I actually ENJOY learning history...Odd, I must say. 0_o

Besides the grade, I'm having a fun time with the whole identity crisis thing, learing who I am, and making the most of it. Each step is a challenge for, if you were me, you'd know all of the crazy things that go on in my head. Sometimes, I even feel like I have totally different personalities, sort of like I'm acting as various characters from a play. Though it feels real. Well, partly real. Sometimes I'm fake and I know that for certain. I can feel it, every inch of me is crying out "shut up and be yourself!!" However, my actions tend to overtake my words which is something I'm trying to prevent. Guess all I need is time. But there's no telling of when that'll run out. I mean, I could die right now. Knowing that I never truely found myself. So, I'm pulling through, putting forth my best effort to work all of this out efficently.

Well, now that I'm done with my incessant tangents, I guess I should stop boring you with this trival essay. So, I'll try putting my mind to rest, and my body as well. Nighty night. ^_^

Random.

2006-10-24T22:29:50Z

I find this quite interesting: http://faculty.washington.edu/chudler/ein.html

Parents...

2006-10-01T02:03:05Z

sometimes I think they just don't understand.

They will most likely be reading this so, I figured I'd type this entry so they could "acidentally" come across it...

So, I might not be going to Homecoming. Despite how much I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want to. I didn't get to go last year and I was really looking forward to going my Sophmore year. But, I guess that's going down the drain.

My parents believe that, with every single guy I encounter, there is some sort of romantic interest. With me, that is just not true. Actually, I have a lot more guy friends than girl friends and tend to perfer the guys better (there are only a couple exceptions there). I sit with 4 guys at lunch and have about 10 others guys that I talk to when there is time before and after class (and no, I'm not exagerrating, I just counted them).

So, the deal is, My friend Zack and I wanted to dress up 70s-like because it was funny and crazy; my parents are completely baffled when it comes to the idea of that. Also, they think that since Zack is a guy, it is most definately a date and I'm "not allowed to go on dates". Okay, so, let me explain the problems with that logic:

1. If you are going on a date, you dress nicely. You don't be goofy and wear an afro and an all-white suit. And you certaintly call it a date; you don't pretend it isn't.
2. Zack doesn't like me. I used to have a tiny crush on him but I stopped liking him when I realized this fact. I see him as only a friend.
3. There will be many adults there. It's not like you are left alone to "do whatever". Schools are overprotective like that. Adults will circle the event like a swarm of bees.

So, then I suggested going alone. But that's not allowed either. Unless my dad is literally sitting at the table with me (parents, that's not what chaperoning means). I was glad when my dad said that he realized how embarrasing that is.

Since going alone was out, I asked my parents if I could go with Zack, Brandon, Ben, and Bernard (the guys that sit at my table that, to the extent of my knowledge, don't have dates yet). The answer was no. When I asked them "why, am I going on a date with all four guys?" I was only threatened with a "If you keep bugging us, you will definately not be going". So, of course, I shut up on that note.

The good thing about this is that my dad is considering letting me go with a girl friend (if I can find one). My best friend isn't allowed to go because of her mom's dumb logic and all of the girl friends I've talked to so far are either not going or already have dates.

^ But that may not work either. Apparently, the consideration is not a final decision. :/

They don't understand. I will pay for my dress. I will pay for my ticket. If I don't end up having the money for it before Homecoming, I will save for it and pay them back. I would also be willing tp let my dad be a chaperon, as long as he isn't sitting at the table with me. I don't care if my friends know my dad is a chaporone but, honestly, it's a bit much to be sitting at the table with your dad.

I just REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want to go. And dress like 70s like what was planned. I don't want Zack to not get to go just because he can't find anyone to do the 70s theme with. I mean, I don't even have to go with him; as long as someone else is doing the same thing, I'm pretty sure that Zack will go to homecoming.

So, that's my rant. Long but hopefully fairly amusing. This is more for my parents to read than anything else. Maybe I'll just randomly put the link to my LJ out there.

Hmm...

2006-09-18T18:58:52Z

My Personality


Neuroticism	64
Extraversion	72
Openness To Experience	85
Agreeableness	2
Conscientiousness	3

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Guess what?

2006-09-17T04:02:43Z

I'm not grounded anymore. :)

I went to a UGA game today. We left the stadium during Halftime. Georgia won and Alabama sucked. The score was 35-0 or something like that.

I'm really, really worried about my friend. She's about to take a very wrong direction. She has no idea what she is getting in to.

Someone needs to take a chill pill.

2006-07-16T02:33:17Z

This is an ongoing message over Myspace. It's an ammusing read to say the least. See for yourself. Read it from the bottom up; otherwise it'll make no sense.

You can't control me.

1- Then don't respond in the first place.
2- No, I actually was wanting to clear up the whole thing about me "hating you". And I figured that at the same time I would respond to your bulletin honestly so some things would be cleared up. Also, if I wanted attention SO much, why would I try to aquire it from YOU? Do you not realize how self-centered you sound?
3- You just contradicted yourself. My "2nd grade bull" IS what I said so, that IS what pissed you off. Anyway, the only immature thing done in this conversation was done by you. The fact that you would get so highly offended by an honest answer to an open question that you asked really points out your lack of maturity and inability to take contructive critisism. I hope that one day you will develop an open mind, for your own sake.
4- Alright. It's done then. Just know that I still don't hate you and I am not hurt by anything you said because I personally CAN take brutal honesty.

I'm not sure why this would cause you stress in the first place...It was just a Myspace bulletin YOU posted. Don't make such a huge deal out of things that don't matter...If this is the way you always react to things, the "stress" in your life is mainly caused by you.

I personally DID have some more to say, so I said it. Sorry if that pisses you off even more. If you are truely busy and wish to no longer discuss this, then I expect you to not respond.

Goodbye. I'm done with this crap. Just don't respond to this if you don't want a response from me because when I want to state my point of view, I state it. I'm bound to make you look like a jackass anyway so, I'd advise you to not let this continue.

Cheers.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: dO you have tO let it linger
Date: Jul 14, 2006 9:48 PM

1- im too busy for this so this is the end
2- u want attention duh! we dont talk- you wouldn't have messaged me if u weren't looking for a reaction!
3-i didn't get pissed from what u said
i got pissed u r makin me waste my time with this 2nd grade bull
4- just dont talk 2 me and i wont talk 2 u
its better that way because i dont have time for more stress
thanks-
dont even say ok or anything back please
because we both have nothing left to say it would be pointless to press reply so do us both a favor and dont

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Me
Date: Jul 15, 2006 12:02 AM

Wow, you are real mature now, aren't you?

In case you didn't notice, I already stated that I wasn't trying to put you down. I saw my opinions of you as being very constructive and well-thought out and I was hoping that you'd appreciate that since you claimed to want the COMPLETE truth.

All this tells me is that you can't handle my opinion. Don't even try to deny that. If you could, then you wouldn't have gotten pissed off.

I wasn't trying to start anything. At all. So please do not think that my intentions were to hurt you or to get a rise out of you. That's not what I was doing...

By the way, exactly where do you get that I "crave attention"?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: dO you have tO let it linger
Date: Jul 14, 2006 4:29 PM

people like u cant put me down
now i can tell u what i think about u
u have 2 much free time
u crave attention
and ur hair i oily
and im a very loyal friend
and a well respected person
and i work hard with everything
and i dont settle for less
so u can shove it right up your EFIIN A!
-TOOTLES-

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Me
Date: Jul 14, 2006 12:25 PM

I have nothing against you but, you can be quite annoying, headstrong, and domineering. You will not accept anyone's ideas but your own and butt into things that are none of your business. You mean well, but you sometimes lack tact and end up making yourself appear very rude.

On a postive note, you seem like you would be a loyal friend and you are brutally honest. If there's something that you would like to say to people, you can bet your bottom dollar that it will be said. You know what you think and who you are and I respect that. Also, you don't let people walk all over you, which is a good thing.

This was not meant to put you down or anything. I just figured that you wanted the truth so, there it is. I would also just like to take this opportunity to tell you that I absolutely do NOT hate you. I do not know you well enough to hate you. Whoever is saying that is getting their ideas mixed up. Yes, there was one day when you were annoying the shit out of me, but it was how you were acting that I hated, NOT you.

Heh. Didn't expect me to respond to this, did ya?

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: dO you have tO let it linger
Date: Jul 13, 2006 9:49 PM

: bet you cant do this, because only 1 in 30 people ever can.

I dare you to tell the person who posted this bulletin the absolute truth of how you feel about them. I mean EVERYTHING that you think about them. Just do it. Send it in a private message and then if you have the guts, repost the question and see what people think of you.

Repost if you feel you can handle the truth and expect a reply
that means actually do it don't just repost it.

I took it again....(It's a bs test)

2006-06-04T00:30:50Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Very High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

I guess I'm pretty screwed up.

2006-06-03T21:14:55Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Was bored.

2006-06-03T17:01:37Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Briana
Birthday:	3/12/91.
Birthplace:	Cheyenne, Whyoming.
Current Location:	Lawrenceville, GA.
Eye Color:	Deep brown.
Hair Color:	Dark brown.
Height:	5'10.
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Righty.
Your Heritage:	White.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	None yet.
Your Weakness:	I'm slighty paranoid.
Your Fears:	The unknown, death, that something tragic will happen (like a love one will die or the house will burn down), that someone will break into my house.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Thick, pepporoni, cheese, mushrooms.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Hey.
Thoughts First Waking Up:	A few more minutes...
Your Best Physical Feature:	Legs.
Your Bedtime:	Whenever I'm tired.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Leigh-Anna from Kindergarden. I wonder where she is now?
Pepsi or Coke:	Neither.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Neither.
Single or Group Dates:	Single.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Either.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Either.
Do you Smoke:	No.
Do you Swear:	Sometimes.
Do you Sing:	All the time.
Do you Shower Daily:	Of course.
Have you Been in Love:	No.
Do you want to go to College:	Yes.
Do you want to get Married:	Perhaps.
Do you belive in yourself:	Sure.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Yes.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yes.
Are you a Health Freak:	Kind of.
Do you get along with your Parents:	For the most part.
*&..39;Do you like Thunderstorms:'*
Do you play an Instrument:	Some keyboard but, not much.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No.
In the past month have you Smoked:	No.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	I think so.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	I wish. I miss my theatre class.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No.
Ever been Drunk:	No.
Ever been called a Tease:	No.
Ever been Beaten up:	No.
Ever Shoplifted:	No.
How do you want to Die:	In peace, not thinking about what's going to happen after I die (which is impossible unless I was high or something)
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Not sure. Something to do with writing or performing.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Paris (which I will next year!!!!)
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue. I'm a sucker for blue eyes.
Favourite Hair Color:	Dark brown.
Short or Long Hair:	Depends on the guy.
Height:	5'10 or taller.
Weight:	Doesn't matter. Love muscles though.
Best Clothing Style:	Whatever suits them.
Number of kids I:	2 or 4.
Number of CDs I own:	20+.
Number of Piercings:	2 (ears).
Number of Tattoos:	None.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Quite a few.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

For those that haven't...

2006-06-02T20:53:22Z

Friend request me. http://www.myspace.com/impeccableflaw

That is all. :)

Are you kidding me?!?!?

2006-06-02T08:02:20Z

I just spent about 40 minutes carefully writing a poem; carefully analyzing it line by line, and making a plethora of corrections and edits. I had finished it, read it over, and was very proud of what I had accomplished.

Then, guess what? I lost my frickin' work.

This sucks. It took me frickin' FOREVER to write it.

My parents...

2006-06-02T04:34:12Z

Have been looking through my emails, Myspace, and LJ the entire time.

It's craziness.

At least I have nothing to hide.

Let's just say...

2006-06-01T03:56:53Z

This Summer, I'm bored out of my mind.

I hope my mom gets me a Gym membership. I really want it. And she's knows that I would totally take advantage of it.

Interesting.

2006-05-31T02:02:07Z

http://dailytelegraph.news.com.au/story/0,20281,19264916-5001022,00.html

Umm...yeah.

2006-05-30T07:23:49Z

Write five things about you, three true, and two false. Post it and have your friends guess which ones are true and which are false. People replying should do this as well. ;)

1. My middle name is Nicole.
2. I carry hand sanitizer with me everywhere I go.
3. I'm afraid of the dark.
4. I love Fall Out Boy.
5. I've jumped naked on a trampoline.

This weekend.

2006-05-29T00:57:22Z

I'm happy because I spent time with my best friend, who I hadn't seen in a while. We've kind of drifted apart and that's the last thing that we want to happen.

I saw Posidion at the IMAX theatre yesterday. It was a good movie and very thought provoking, at least for me. In my head, I kept picturing me in a life-or-death situation simular to that (there's a possibility it may happen). What would I do? Well, in the situation in the movie, I'd be screwed because I can't swim. But, besides that, looking at a different situation, what if it happens?

Life is taken for granted way too often when you live in a safe, secure home with a wonderful family who cares immensely for you, at least when your referring to me. I'm spoiled, have it all, and have been living my life as if all of my problems were larger than my life itself. Posidion made me relearn that there are worse things in this world than the stupid crap I go through.

However, I've been having this very strange, very strong feeling that something terrible and tragic will happen soon that will effect me like nothing else. It's along the lines of someone I care about is going to die, the house will burn down, or a natural disater will strike. It sounds crazy and paranoid but, seriously, what if this feeling is correct? What if I am just waiting for danger? What will I do if it happens? Well, considering past situations, you could say that I won't handle it well but, I'm stronger now and I'd like to think that I can tackle anything. Sometimes I wish to run, hide, fly away from my problems but, all they end up doing is coming right back to haunt me. I've been trying to instead look my problems in the face and deal with them first off instead of brushing them off. So, hopefully, after learning these lessons in life, I will be prepared for whatever force that strikes me. If I have no faith in myself then, my life is futile. I will defy my instincts and break out of my comfort zone to insure that is not true.

Why do I probe so deeply into things? Everything in this world seems as if it is a metaphor for life. Everything around seems to lead to a phylisopical discussion. What can I say, I'm facinated by my life and well...life itself. I often contemplate the meaning of it as I watch people; who have all of these trivial conversations that they consider important, sitting in sameness, watching their time float away not realizing that at any given moment, everything could fall apart. We all will die, it's inevitable, and I often look far into the future, after I have gone and ask myself "Was it all worth it?" As of now, I can't decide. For I am one of those people that I described in this paragraph; the one who's not living to the fullest and should be. Of course instead of asking "what impact have I made?", I should be asking "what impact can I make?" Because so far, I do not believe that I, possesing everything I could possibly need to, have made any difference in anything. That must change because I refuse to be passive in this world. There must be something more than this. There just has to be. People say "just live" but, I can't do that. I must at least to attempt to discover answers, even if I die without knowledge. I hope to complete my life, at least satisfied that I gave it a shot.

Well, there you have it. Inside of the mind of Briana Neves. Pondering death at 15. Wow, I'm a bit physco.

I bet no one's going to read this; it's the length of an essay. Well, you know, I've always been good at essays. Sheesh. Why am I so detailed and analytical? (I guess I'll stop at that question before it becomes another monolouge of reasons why and whatnot. haha.)

I love...

2006-05-26T20:09:56Z

My default picture. Check it out. :D

I've been playing around with PSP a lot...Tis fun.

My character is nuts...

2006-05-22T16:18:25Z

Desired Character: Ben Riley

Character Year/Age: 6 but act like he's 102.5

Personality Description:

A pyromanic with an obssesion with mailboxes, he spends his free time eating pounds of fried chicken. Cold-hearted, impulsive, and rash, he often has the tendency to strangle people with his purple scarf. His allergies include nitrogen, paint thinner, and calcium. Because of this, he is extremely resentful towards the world and resides in confined bubble in Atlantis. Suffers from a serious form of cellular deterioration, resulting in accelerated aging.

On the weekends, he travels ouside in a Wonder Woman costume, searching for golden treasure in Germany. While over there, he seems to never find any oranges which causes him to fly out in an uncontrollable rage. Every time this occurs, the town's midgets attempt to calm him down but, end up falling in the numerous holes dug all over the world by Ben.

Wrestling with fate, Ben is deathy afraid of an afterlife. His concerns cause him to avoid riding rollar coasters, consuming acid rain, and standing on his head. His monkey friend, Earl, often attempts to convince Ben to face his fears by blackmailing him with his secret love letter to Bugs Bunny but, Ben doesn't worry about it because Earl never follows through with his blackmailing because the crows tend to cover Earl with oil to prevent him. Earl being one to accept defeat, drags his feet aross the floor and changes the subject, bitching about airplane food (which makes Ben have the urge to murder him as they have had the same conversation multiple times).

As far as future aspirations, Ben plans on becoming a tap-dancer. Every Wednesday, he auditions in Texas and somehow never ends up making the cut. This causes Ben to be so estatic that he plants lightbulbs in his botanical garden in Italy. His enviormentalist pet Zebra, Marvin, objects to this as it draws too much attention aways from the beautiful cherry trees he adores. At this, Ben rolls his eyes and is constantly attempting to set Marvin up to be struck with lighning and catipulting to Mars. However, Ben fails at this attempt so, he instead, he bribes Marvin so that Marvin will change his mind. Marvin always objects.

Ben one day dreams of meeting Bugs Bunny, fallling in love, and getting married. Convinced that Bugs bunny is a real life female in a keychain costume, he believes that his dreams are realistic and expects them to become reality insantly.

History:

He was born in Mexico on a rainy Friday night. His mother, an elf left him at a train station where marshmellows later found him and left him. He doesn't give a shit about where he came from, as he has short term memory loss.

Appearance: The scarecrow from the Wizard of Oz.

This is rare...

2006-05-21T05:05:45Z

No, I don't.

hehe

2006-05-20T15:03:12Z

This ammuses me wayyy too much: http://www.angryalien.com/amys_diary.html

lalala

2006-05-20T04:17:22Z

This guy in my Biology class SO likes me. Too bad he's immature and lives in Grand Theft Auto World...

I'm going to Europe next Spring Break! I'm so excited!

I can't believe that this is the ending of my Freshman year...I now now that it is true that High School goes by quickly. What the hell am I going to do after High School? It kind of scares me. Well, at least I think of the future unlike some people that won't acknowledge that they even HAVE a future. I'd rather worry a ton about it then be apathetic and end up living on the streets or something.

I've been getting good sleeps lately. Relaxing. Chilling out. Something I need to do a little more often. Well, I'll get many opportunities to do that during the Summer. Speaking of Summer....

I don't know what I'm going to do this Summer...probably hang out with friends, go on the computer, and try to get in as much exercise as possible. Like every other Summer. Should be fun.

My life is ever-changing. My mood shoots from the heavenly stars up above to the firey pits of hell down below. That's how it was today except, the other way around. I started out with one of my retarded moody moods where it takes a ridiculous amount of effort for me to smile. Eventually, I ended up having a laugh attack about nothing in particular at the end of the day. I'm all over the place, man. It's cool but it constantly keeps me in a state of confusion. Everything about me is contradictory.

All is well.